So I realized this sounds like a rant and maybe it is or simply a confession, either way it’s been said and this fact I do not dread, for truth in the end can hurt at first but like any wound it will heal and it sometimes leaves a scare.
In my life I have met and befriended people from many different socially and un-socially accepted lifestyles, which include but are not limited to lesbians, gays, bisexuals, transgenders, furries, sadists, masochists, bondage and domination masters, mistresses and their submissives, Buddhists, Jews, Muslims, agnostics, atheists, sihkes, Satanists, wiccans, pagans, all of whom are, have, and will always be an inspiration towards global equality for me.
With this said Mr. Shakespeare said it best “to thine own self be true”, which to me translates as “do not live your life to please someone else, for you compromise your beliefs, your values, and your SELF respect”.
There are family members, and then friends who are more family than blood relatives. Some of my blood relations I have no real memories of, or they are blocked and probably for the best.
As for my four children, the only legacy I had to give them was freedom from abuse, which meant from me as well. I made a promise to the Gods if I every became violent like the monster that caused their creation, I would remove them from my care immediately, sadly that day came, and in a blind rage I almost hit my youngest who was only 2 yeas old. Which meant I had to let go otherwise none of us could grow past the pain of our mutual past traumas, even though it pained me to have to cause this trauma to save them from me.
But through my journeys I have learned from some of the most loving and beautiful souls, that it will always be our differences that scare others, because somewhere deep down they are ruled by fear. By the fear that they themselves may secretly long for or are attracted to one or more of any number of lifestyle choices.
In a way he who doth protest to much may be the one with the most to hide. So here I sit stylus in hand hoping to heal myself and any others who may understand.
My words can be scattered and sometimes what the bleep, but I have to get them out or I cannot sleep. So here I toast to all of you, May your lives be filled with compassion and trust, overflowing with happiness and love, all the while teaching others and self not to give up.
Namaste you are all worthy of a life filled with prosperity.
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